A Whole New World

With Family, Friends and Love with me now,
Gosh, I'M GOD DAMN REVIVED!!!

Anyway, many things happened these days,
things that its suffering but memorable.
God give me my family,
Fate give me my friends,
and Santa give me Love! (I never imagine that...)
Happily ever after...

3 Weeks to final exam.
1 month to flight.
Fully charged, bring it on!
I really changed a lot in Aus,
not only physically, (fat=.=)
but also mentally.
Its hard to say anything of it,
you guys have to observe yourself when I come back XDDD
Oh gosh, dear, I really wish to be with you when you have your birthday...
Oh my god...

What am I saying, I have no idea XDDD
just type out everything in my head,
which filled with my family, final, dandelion and her^^
Busy, but filling.
I'll see you guys in Msia!!!
Everything in Aus, wait for me to come back!!!

Lifeless & Miserable

I know this is really not a good time for blogging,
but still I have an urge to write down my shitty feeling now.
OMG, I FEEL SO LIFELESS!!!

Anyway, maybe I'm just tired.
Tired of what? Tired of everything.
Assignments? I deserve that (Leave everything until last minute, LOL)
Exams? MACRO ROCKS BUT THE LECTURER SUCKS!
"Her"? Wordless... Tired... I liked to expand more but as I just told her, no mood for "heart digging" in the moment...
Everything seems to drive me back to Malaysia, where I feel most comfortable.
I still can't tell what is the main reason why I'm feeling lifeless.

I know I should be doing my Macro assignment which due TOMORROW,
but I have a feeling that I don't care a damn on that shit.
Well, obviously I can't do that (for the sake of my future and scholarship, GULP!)
There's sometime since she online and suddenly, she just disappeared from my life.
I was wondering, can I kept this "status"?
Just to get rid of her from the "love" part from my heart.
Unfortunately, I can't, because I started missing her the moment I thought of this.
I wonder what would I feel if everything ends when I go back.
I hate to say it, but that is the only word drifting in my mind now
FUCK!!!
Oh gosh, god please end my miserable but don't kill me =p

I started to believe part of those horoscope predicting shits.
I met one of my friend who is a Sagittarius like me too.
We share a same personality.
We like to share, but if its too sad or troublesome, we won't.
No one can help us, only ourselves.
Even though I tell you, so what? You can do nothing if its so serious.
It only make me feel worse.
Hey Suki, we're mates, eh?
Hehe...

Alright, back to work.
She won't see this before couple of weeks from now, maybe longer.
(or never)
I just have to budge along... budge along...
and try to suck her out of my brain, no matter a split second or what.
Ciao~