Lifeless & Miserable
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I know this is really not a good time for blogging,
but still I have an urge to write down my shitty feeling now.
OMG, I FEEL SO LIFELESS!!!
Anyway, maybe I'm just tired.
Tired of what? Tired of everything.
Assignments? I deserve that (Leave everything until last minute, LOL)
Exams? MACRO ROCKS BUT THE LECTURER SUCKS!
"Her"? Wordless... Tired... I liked to expand more but as I just told her, no mood for "heart digging" in the moment...
Everything seems to drive me back to Malaysia, where I feel most comfortable.
I still can't tell what is the main reason why I'm feeling lifeless.
I know I should be doing my Macro assignment which due TOMORROW,
but I have a feeling that I don't care a damn on that shit.
Well, obviously I can't do that (for the sake of my future and scholarship, GULP!)
There's sometime since she online and suddenly, she just disappeared from my life.
I was wondering, can I kept this "status"?
Just to get rid of her from the "love" part from my heart.
Unfortunately, I can't, because I started missing her the moment I thought of this.
I wonder what would I feel if everything ends when I go back.
I hate to say it, but that is the only word drifting in my mind now
FUCK!!!
Oh gosh, god please end my miserable but don't kill me =p
I started to believe part of those horoscope predicting shits.
I met one of my friend who is a Sagittarius like me too.
We share a same personality.
We like to share, but if its too sad or troublesome, we won't.
No one can help us, only ourselves.
Even though I tell you, so what? You can do nothing if its so serious.
It only make me feel worse.
Hey Suki, we're mates, eh?
Hehe...
Alright, back to work.
She won't see this before couple of weeks from now, maybe longer.
(or never)
I just have to budge along... budge along...
and try to suck her out of my brain, no matter a split second or what.
Ciao~
but still I have an urge to write down my shitty feeling now.
OMG, I FEEL SO LIFELESS!!!
Anyway, maybe I'm just tired.
Tired of what? Tired of everything.
Assignments? I deserve that (Leave everything until last minute, LOL)
Exams? MACRO ROCKS BUT THE LECTURER SUCKS!
"Her"? Wordless... Tired... I liked to expand more but as I just told her, no mood for "heart digging" in the moment...
Everything seems to drive me back to Malaysia, where I feel most comfortable.
I still can't tell what is the main reason why I'm feeling lifeless.
I know I should be doing my Macro assignment which due TOMORROW,
but I have a feeling that I don't care a damn on that shit.
Well, obviously I can't do that (for the sake of my future and scholarship, GULP!)
There's sometime since she online and suddenly, she just disappeared from my life.
I was wondering, can I kept this "status"?
Just to get rid of her from the "love" part from my heart.
Unfortunately, I can't, because I started missing her the moment I thought of this.
I wonder what would I feel if everything ends when I go back.
I hate to say it, but that is the only word drifting in my mind now
FUCK!!!
Oh gosh, god please end my miserable but don't kill me =p
I started to believe part of those horoscope predicting shits.
I met one of my friend who is a Sagittarius like me too.
We share a same personality.
We like to share, but if its too sad or troublesome, we won't.
No one can help us, only ourselves.
Even though I tell you, so what? You can do nothing if its so serious.
It only make me feel worse.
Hey Suki, we're mates, eh?
Hehe...
Alright, back to work.
She won't see this before couple of weeks from now, maybe longer.
(or never)
I just have to budge along... budge along...
and try to suck her out of my brain, no matter a split second or what.
Ciao~
chill bro~
When you start thinking bout her again, this is what will happen..
The world seems nothing but her, you'll miss her like hell.
But the fact is,
you still have other people that love you so much.
They are your family, friends, and 'so-call'family(which is me ^^').
Chill =)
I'm not very busy at the moment. Skype me if you need and when you don't need too, k? ^.<
(I'm writing as someone who once loved so deeply and didn't get repaid and felt so stupid. Though, I'm still waiting for someone who'll love me like I do with a open heart ^^)